review by MARISA
tw for mental illness
Bea knows that she’s crazy, but she isn’t sure if the diagnosis she’s been given really suits her. After all, she might be a little obsessed with taking notes, but she isn’t as bad as the others in her group therapy. Beck, too, knows that others think he’s overdoing things – but surely exercising and caring about hygiene isn’t a bad thing? When Bea helps Beck through his first panic attack, she knew that she liked him, despite not knowing anything other than his first name. When they meet again at group therapy, it seems like fate – or it would be, if she believed in fate – and they tentatively start dating. As her feelings for Beck and her understanding of both their compulsions strengthens, Bea would have to confront her obsession for someone else, before things fall apart.
I’m not sure what I was expecting when I started on this book, but it certainly wasn’t quite what I thought it was going to be. It ended up being a lot heavier, a lot darker than I expected – which was actually a good thing. This is a love story, but it’s also a story about coping with anxiety disorder, and caring for someone with anxiety disorder – which can be harrowing and potentially triggering if you actually have OCD, but it does help those who don’t understand it better. In the end, I found this novel to be uncomfortable and disturbing at times – especially when I related to it the most. However, I still think it’s a very good read, and though it’s not for everyone, it’s definitely a book I’d recommend. – Mari